I am having an experience wherein reality backs my delusion
I am having an experience wherein my delusion is explainable by natural laws.
I am having an experience wherein my insanity begins where people begin to dissociate.
In another culture, the word to describe me would have been shaman, prophet, healer, priestess, oracle, witch.
But, I live in America, where everyone is secretly an atheist.
So, I am a neuro-divergent person.
I dream of a reality wherein people just say, "Oh yeah, that's Ernie, he's the best mechanic in town."
"He hears a voice of God on the radio."
And then, move on.
And just accept that some people have more information than others.
Instead, I live in a farm town.
Where as soon as I venture into quantum physics, string theory, computing, psychology, spirituality, micro-expression...
Faces glaze over.
Fear comes into their eyes.
Because they see what I do too, if you talk about individual events.
However, when one begins to discuss the pattern...
And the picture it paints...
They flee like deer from a fire.
I will wear the mantle of their labels.
I will pretend not to see what I see.
Because they are not ready.
And no part of me enjoys anyone's pain.
But, people exhaust me.
And I plan to speak slowly, concisely and clearly
When I meet those with whom I can talk in a meaningful way.
But, I need a damn nap.