Public Journal Entry:

Apparently, Wednesday is not a big day for Instacart. They were trying to get me to drive 30 miles make $30. 

Apparently, Wednesday is now a day off for me. Trying to make it productive and healing.

And, to just stare off into space for a bit. The last few days have been a lot, emotionally.

That job I left meant a lot to me. I just can't do it right now, and that's been coming on for a long time. I'm so tired of trying to get through all of this (gestures around vaguely) and get better.

Recovery, real recovery, sucks ass, and is such a 2 steps forward, one step back kind of thing. 

I do, however, think that I'm finally moving forward down the road, rather than in reverse.

I've got this. We've all got this, because isn't trying to get better what life is?

Phew.