Something that is interesting since my ego death/nervous breakdown is how my internal visualization of my mind has changed.
What was once a web, now has the feeling of a forest, or a cathedral.
In a way, the experience feels like it was a software update. I’m listening to a book about mindfulness. The author is talking about the process of forming new neural pathways, from a Buddhist perspective.
This book resonates.
I feel like my brain has completely re-routed.
Nothing feels familiar inside. It feels peaceful. I’ve never felt this before.
Because of my trauma history, this calm feels, emotionally, like the eye of the storm.
However, I think it’s just peace.